今天的心情糟透了
早上被妈咪吓醒
就因为找车钥匙
然后
发现相机坏了！
我的命啊！
心情就跌到无底洞里
过后
又接到无聊的电话
啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
我真想去海边发泄
今天简直是糟透了啦
早上被妈咪吓醒
就因为找车钥匙
然后
发现相机坏了！
我的命啊！
心情就跌到无底洞里
过后
又接到无聊的电话
啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
我真想去海边发泄
今天简直是糟透了啦
Monday, November 1, 2010
Monday, August 16, 2010
If U're in a relationship, married or none, read this. U'll know why at the end.
MARRIAGE
When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.
Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.
She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.
The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.
When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.
In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.
This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.
She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.
I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.
My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.
On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.
Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.
Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.
But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.
I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.
She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.
Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.
At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.
That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....
The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!
If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.
If you do, you just might save a marriage.
Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.
A CHRIST-CENTERED MARRIAGE IS A MARRIAGE THAT IS SURE TO LAST A LIFETIME.
So then, they are no longer two but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate. Matthew 19:6.
By Stephanie Halmilton
When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.
Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.
She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.
The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.
When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.
In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.
This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.
She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.
I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.
My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.
On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.
Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.
Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.
But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.
I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.
She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.
Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.
At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.
That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....
The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!
If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.
If you do, you just might save a marriage.
Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.
A CHRIST-CENTERED MARRIAGE IS A MARRIAGE THAT IS SURE TO LAST A LIFETIME.
So then, they are no longer two but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate. Matthew 19:6.
By Stephanie Halmilton
Friday, August 13, 2010
失败
我的挑战失败了
彻彻底底得失败了
受了很大的打击
掉到谷底的感觉
很不好受
头很痛
现在才真正发现
原来我真的要自己一个人独立了
现在是我人生中的低潮期吧
人生总有上上下下
我应该勇敢得去面对
想想
这也没有什么不好的
至少我努力过了
我也经历过最难的
能让我在未来时
更勇敢！
虽然很痛
哭也哭到泪干了
但是我还是要走出来
我不能就这样倒下
我愿意再努力得试一次
我也希望上天能给我一次机会
不要再对我那么绝情
我承受不起
原以为
在感情上受的伤
会是心里的最痛
其实
不是
当你在你最在乎的人生里
失败时
那才是。。。
真正的痛
而且是
无法形容的痛
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Friday, August 6, 2010
难熬
肚子痛！！
睡觉睡到正甜时
因为肚子痛
而痛到我醒来了
T.T
救命啊！！
又过了一个星期
多几天
AS成绩就要出来了
>.<"
我已做足了心理准备要哭了
大哭特哭一场
哗~！！
考完试就可以回家了
BOBO，妈咪好想你哦
你要乖乖的哦
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Sunday, July 25, 2010
1:30am
its 1:30am in the morning
still cant sleep
i miss the doggie that u gave me as my 18th birthday present
i sent it to Lavanderie laundry just now
insomnia
i guess so
god!
i need more rest
trial is coming so so soon
AND
AS result will be coming out in 3 weeks time
GG lar
T.T
gonna end my A-Levels Program soon
that's it
one and half years in Taylor's College
its really a short period of time
Saturday, July 17, 2010
定心丸
Bon Odori
人山人海
热到要死
挤到像sardin
回来的途中
真是惊险啊！！
shah alam的路都怪怪的
还是超怪的那个
害我们差点发生车祸了
整架车有飞起来的感觉
还好对面路的车没开很快
phew~~~
坐在前座的Kelly
喊了蛮大声的
被吓到了吧
车主的脸
也有点被吓到的感觉
看他的脸就知道
他很心痛他的车
前面的dressing裂了
车底感觉有被刮到
>.<
才听kelly说
原来他是个很照顾车子的人
我的天啊
看到前面的裂痕
都替他感到心痛
Friday, July 16, 2010
我爱我恨你
不知道
他们还是不是在看篮球赛呢
我想家了
难得DADDY那天问我七月有没有放假
他说要带我去看这场篮球赛
那时我才发现
原来那么久没和他一起去看球赛了
前几年的我
总是在记录台
当工作人员
和好朋友忙到没时间吃饭
还真怀念呢
孩子渐渐得长大
才发现
和DADDY & MUMMY
相处的时间就越来越少
难怪
之前妈咪总是要把我留在身边
不太爱让我和朋友到处去趴趴走
原来
她早已做好心理准备
要让我出去看世界
所以
才在我还没出来时
让我好好得陪她
昨晚躺在床上睡不着
算着我现在放假的时间
在一年里
我能回家陪家人和抱抱我宝贝的时间
也只有区区的10个星期罢了
跟以前的365天
相差了很多
我真的要考虑看看
要不要继续留在外面读书
Thursday, July 15, 2010
不管你的事！
你可不可以不要再管我了
从今以后
不管我做什么
都与你无关
你不要再管我了啦
你以为你是谁啊
你为什么选择在去年年尾
和我联络
我们失去联络的那段日子
你不是过得好好的吗
我也过得不错
你放弃了我！
你选择和她在一起
你总是说
我是个没感情的人
那你呢？
为什么不跟我坦白？
为什么不是你告诉我？
为什么是我自己发现到？
为什么？？！
你告诉我为什么？！！！
我真的累了
现在的你和我
和一年前的你和我
都不一样了
你不要总是装作一副很关心我的样子
你总说是我先伤害你
你也伤我不少
不要总是把我想的那么坚强
我其实并没有你想象得那么坚强
不要每次和她出现问题时
都来找我
我是24小时都是为你的
好不好！
我想和你说再见
但是
每次我一回去
就会让我遇见你
真的很讨厌！
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
its wednesday!! movie day & Baskin Robins PINK day!!
god!
I had a terrible headache this morning
so, I skipped all the classes except maths
maths class ended at 1pm
classes always ended early during sem 3
went to Sunway Pyramid for movie
with Kelly & QT~
as Kelly really wanted to watch eclipse
=p
no bad lur
^^
she is crazy with Jacob
no BR for today
T.T
so sad
everyone are having their own diet plan recently
keep it up guys!!
i think i will be the 1st person to give up
XP
Sunday, July 11, 2010
阿嬤的白頭髮
听到这首歌时
我哭了
“阿嬤”
听起来
就很慈祥
从小，我就很想要有个阿嬤来疼我
可是
外婆在很久以前就去世了
至于我的婆婆呢
对她的感觉没那么亲切
可能是因为从小就没什么和她沟通
对于小时候的回忆
公公和婆婆总是常常打架和吵架
“孙子”
我永远都不会明白这两个字
每次
每当我问起外公外婆时
妈咪总会不高兴
也不想多说
难道我就没权利知道
Saturday, July 10, 2010
KARAOKE
昨天
放学后
就和琪婷，JIYUN和KELLY
一起去KARAOKE
琪婷还是第一次和我们一起去唱歌
JIYUN就是第二次
至于KELLY嘛。。已是无数次了
哈哈哈
大家都点了很多好好听的歌
JIYUN点的其中一首歌
让我想起了你
她还没开始唱时
她还问了我一句
“你听过这首歌吗？”
我笑着对她点头
我曾经一度得想把这首歌忘了
但是
这对值得欣赏的歌来说
是不公平的
所以
我决定
把这首歌列为
“我回忆中的歌”
昨晚一个人在房里
睡睡下
不懂为什么
就突然醒了过来
看看时间
竟然是凌晨一点多
坐在床上
不知不觉的
眼泪又再次流了下来
难道
是我想你了吗
If I Ain't Got You - Alicia Keys
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Monday, July 5, 2010
最近的歌声
爱笑的外表
能撑多久
心里所感受到的心痛
要痛多久
一次又一次的流泪
从红肿的眼睛
哭成无泪的眼睛
眼泪是无法往肚里吞的
一直在逃避
逃啊 逃的
六年前就开始不爱书的自己
竟然会为了逃避
而拼了命似的
读书
好恐怖的改变
这已是超越相像中的离谱
满脑子
一直在想要怎样让自己更忙碌
忙！忙！忙！
最好把我累垮
让自己忙完后
就可以马上睡着
醒来后
再忙
让自己没时间去想东想西
Saturday, July 3, 2010
That's My Goal
*What a touching song*
This is what I feel during the very first time I heard this song
BEAUTIFUL!!
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